New Home

OK my last post was a deep one. This is of a lighter nature. As of August 1, 2009 (July really) I became a home owner. Yes, I bought my first home, it's a co-op but its mine, well the banks for right now. It is something that I thought would never be. And it is something I have wanted for a long time. It was very exciting moving in and getting all new furniture and having that brought in. Hanging up my first two pictures (OK so far the only pictures). Having all the help that I got to paint. I still need to paint the hallway and bathroom. I couldn't wait any longer. My friends wanted to know when I would be having a house warming. So I did. And it was a great time. I enjoyed having my family, friends, and even new friends that I have made since I moved in, join in the celebration. I missed those of you that couldn't make it but I do understand...That little thing called life gets in the way...but I have to say you were missed for sure.

I have to admit for the last year and a half I have had a lot going on. I have lost some friends and family members (R.I.P.). I have had changes in my life, some not so happy. I have to admit, the day I step foot in my new home everything else didn't matter. I have always felt that life is what you make it. I have always tried to keep the negative out. All I can say now is, life is good...and it keeps getting better!!!

I hope that all of you are as lucky as me.

Long Time

It has been some time since I have posted anything. I just had some random thoughts going through my head. We can have people in our lives that we enjoy so much. And then something changes. And all that fun is gone. I know people that keep asking why do things happen to them. Well, let me help you out with that...Think about what you do to others. You might say to yourself (and others) I am such a good person. And you just might be, when things are going your way. Ask yourself these questions.
Have I been good to everyone?
Have I been playing games with other peoples lives?
Have I done anything to make people look at me different?
Have I done something and blamed others for it?
Have I put someone in the middle of something that I should have?
Have I crossed any lines, and then played the victim?
Have people come in and out of my life, and if so often?

If you answered honestly to these questions...And answered yes to any of them. Then you need to stand up and take blame for you what have done. Don't point the finger at others. And don't blame others. It is YOUR life, and only you can control it. Only you can stop the games you are playing.

Anyway, those are just my thoughts.

Do you ever get tired?

Do you ever get tired of people putting the blame on someone else?
Do you ever get tired of people not owning up to what they do?
Do you ever get tired of people saying that everything that happens to them is because of someone else?
When will people own up to what they do?
You know just get over themselves?
Maybe if they did, they could live a happy life...

But what ever...Life goes on...

Good Friends

After 25 years it was great to see 5 people who were/are special in my life. you know you have true friends when you don't see them for 25 years and you can pick up right where you left off. As if the long years were never there. The six of us have not been in the same place at the same time in all those years. But it was so great to sit there and talk as if it were yesterday. And the freshness of the fact that we were all still straight forward with each other made it even more enjoyable. To still feel the closeness. And to have the gathering at Feliciana's house was perfect. It made it like a REAL home coming...That IS where we spent most of our time. Her house was the house to be at. We sat around in a circle just talking about everything and anything. And just for a moment we were teenagers again, without a care in the word. We talked about friends that are no longer with us, and the fact that we are Lucky to still be here. We said that we would keep in touch and try to get together more often. I hope that we really do! Kelly it was a great idea you had. Fe, thanks for letting us into your home all those years ago, and it is wonderful to see that the door is still open. Had a great time!

Personal Inventory

Every now and then we should all take what I call personal inventory. This is when we sit back and think about the things we do. The things we have. Things we should get rid of. It is so easy for people to take other people's inventory. We can look at other people and say...Why do they keep sitting on their excuses? Why do they blame others for the choices THEY made themselves? Why do they always complain? I can sit here and point out peoples faults, as they can point out mine. However, can we point out our own? And if we can, do we know how to change the things that need to be changed? The bigger question is WILL we make the change, or will we sit around and say why me, why does this happen to me? I am a good person why, why, why? I have always tried to be there for my family & friends, hell I have even try to help strangers. When do we say enough is enough? When do we tell our family or friends to grow up? When do we tell them to accept the choices THEY have made? How many times can we tell them if you are not happy with it, only you can change it? And for how long do we stick around and listen to them blame others for the situation they are in?

So, I decided to take my personal inventory. I found that I was in a lot of unhappy situations. Although, I wasn't saying why me, I'm a good person? I found myself saying I am unhappy with this and that. And asked myself why am I not changing these things. Why do I still have people around me that don't make me happy? People can bring you down, before you can lift them up. Even though it wasn't easy, I decided to get rid of the negative people, and things around me. If it doesn't make me happy, it wont be around. I hope to be moving in the next few months into my own co-op. And I refuse to bring the negative b*ll Sh*t with me. I have always wanted my home to be a bright, cheerful place. And for the most part it has been. Every now and then the negative slips in. So my new home...WILL be my new beginning. A joyful place.

I know a lot of people out there that do destructive things. And when all is said and done play the victim. They are not hurting anyone but themselves. It is sad because they will never move forward. I always say Karma is a b*tch...What you do to others will come back at you twice as hard. Never do anything out of spite or with the attitude of I'll show them. In the end you will be the one going home to cry...not them.

Anyway, enough of my ramblings...Wishing everyone all the best...and maybe try taking personal inventory.

Valentine's Day 2009

OK by now I am sure all of you know of my FIRST Valentine's Day with Thomas. And the mess it was. And how he fixed it later on. Well, even though we are no longer together. He brought me the wonderful flowers. I told him he didn't have to...His reply was, "You can get married and move to Kalamazoo and you will get a card from me on Valentine's Day." I guess he understands now how important it is lol. Have a great one everybody.

Xmas In Jan 09

Just want to thank everyone for coming. It was another great time with friends...Although I think I can do without the snot laughs thank you very much lol.